October had a first birthday. Reminiscing came easy this month, as the parents of a one-year-old looked back at the parents of a newborn with a gentle smile and a pat on the back. We cut last year’s version of ourselves some slack. We laughed at how we couldn’t even pull a onesie over our newborn’s head so we opted for things that snapped in the front. For awhile. We remembered that first night home from the hospital, last year at this time, as one of the scariest nights of our lives. We took turns feeding him formula after nursing so that his blood sugar didn’t drop too low again. We were told to watch for signs of low blood sugar, like lethargy. “Does he seem lethargic to you… now?” we asked each other as we stared at this tiny person who slept almost all day. I can still feel the relief when we found out his levels were normal and that breastfeeding alone would be enough. And I could breathe. It was a fast year but at the same time that seems like decades ago. The self doubt we felt then has been replaced with a confidence that can only come with experience. And it’s not that we don’t have doubts now too, but we are doing our best and now we know that our best is definitely enough.
And, oh my gourd, October had a first birthday party too. We celebrated the apple of my (googly) eye with cake and presents and family and friends who are like family. My boy might be the only boy to not even put a morsel of cake up to his mouth. He loved playing with his friends at his party. He’s just one of the kids now, this one-year-old.
October thrilled a developing boy’s senses with crinkly leaves and freshly fallen pine cones that smelled and felt (and tasted, probably, if Mom would have just let him eat it) so good. There were plenty of beautiful days that allowed for late in the season walks as both baby and parents took advantage of the fleeting warmth.
If October had a mascot, it’d be the cousin. Cousins on both sides of the family made Desi so happy this month. A trip to Maine with Dad’s family and a pumpkin carving party with Mom’s. And, in both cases, a boy who looks up to these big kids like crazy.
October rounded out with a new round of teething and a kangaroo costume. The amber teething necklace has made its reappearance and so have wet washcloths to chew on. They go so well with fur hoods and pouches. A match made in October heaven, really.